Craptastic

Well well well…

Angel — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 20:03:29 +0000

In times of need, you really do find out who actually gives a damn about you. Whether you’ve been hospitalized or are just having a rough time. Then and only then, do you find out who cares.

People who I thought were friends, turned out not to be. Not at all apparently. It amazes me that some people are so careless and really don’t give a damn about anyone but themselves. Found that out recently and well….ya’ll can both suck it. My time and energy is not worth either of you.

I do hope karma pays you a lovely visit in the near future.

Ranting Randomly

Angel — Wed, 02 Nov 2011 01:59:06 +0000

Is it really necessary after I’ve mentioned of the horrid panic attack that plagued me last that that it was essential that you berate me of how I should have a regular job with benefits and retirement? Sure you don’t like that I work from home…well, it’s time to get over it. This is the best choice for our child.

I enjoy the freedom of being able to work from home while still being able to take care of our child and run the various errands that need to be done. Was it forgotten how I took the vehicle to have multiple routine things done to it? Well, yes…yes I did do that during the day when you were working.

How about when my mother had surgery. I was able to rearrange my schedule so I could be there for her when she needed me. I like and need that freedom to be content.

Please stop adding to my stress and panic levels. Its certainly not helping matters one bit and well frankly, it’s pissing me off that you continue to do this.

Hip-notic

Angel — Wed, 26 Oct 2011 23:54:52 +0000

My mother is having a hip replacement. As in, cut open my body, remove my hip which is attached to my other bones, the hip bones connected to the leg bone, but I digress. Yes, let’s put metal in my body to fix this. How crazy is that? They can replace bones with metal so you continue to walk. I’m so thankful this can be done nowadays for people.

Yeah…I’m stressed and nervous, but it’s not about me. Time to be strong.

Panic Stricken

Angel — Mon, 24 Oct 2011 23:39:17 +0000

It sucks to feel panicky over something you have no control over. It super sucks to feel panic when you have no idea why.

How do you control it when you don’t know what’s wrong?

Note to self

Angel — Mon, 24 Oct 2011 23:34:21 +0000

Always remember to rinse the conditioner out of your hair before getting trying to blow dry your hair.

Anxiously anxious

Angel — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 00:36:08 +0000

Some days are difficult. It’s hard to not be anxious when it’s part of you. Well, just don’t be anxious. It’s easier said than done for people like me. You can’t look at me and tell that I suffer from Anxiety and Panic Attacks. It’s like any other disease that you have to live with. You learn to deal with and take medication when recommended by your doctor so that you can have some relief.

Some days are easier than others and I couldn’t tell you why. Maybe it has something to do with the weather or how I slept the previous night. Who knows. I’ve begun working more hours during the week and I’m wondering if that has added some stress as well. Have to work, so not much can be done there.

Sir Weird Al

Angel — Sun, 02 Oct 2011 01:54:21 +0000

Watching the Weird Al special on Comedy Central this evening. One of the greatest performers of all time.
Makes me thank God for Weird Al. His music makes me smile and his performances crack me up.
He improves my mood and brightens my day.

The pains

Angel — Fri, 30 Sep 2011 01:47:32 +0000

Is it really necessary for there to be so many diseases and illnesses to pain and cause such discomfort in people? Umpteen cancers, asthma, autism, heart conditions, anxiety, stress, panic disorders, depression, and everything in between.

Some people don’t talk about it and they really should. What if it could help others suffering?

I suffer from a few things. One that is currently the bane of my existence is acid reflux. At its peak, it feels like I’m having a heart attack. The chest pressure, the difficulty breathing and lets not forget the horrible taste in my mouth. Oh the delicious stomach acid taste.

The current cause for my discomfort is salad. No, really. Salad. It is so good for you they say and I actually love salad. It is, however, hard to digest which makes it shoot that acid straight up your gullet.

I currently take a PPI, proton pump inhibitor, Protonix. I take it every day and still I have problems.

Compared to some, my digestive problems are nothing to what some people live with every day. It does, however, suck for me right now.